Kuch Ankahee Baatein...

Something in Urdu for a change. :)

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Jazbat aise hue hamse khafa

Hume toh laga hum askho ko hi bhul gae..

Dil mei unki yaadon k sahare,

Hooton pe muskan aur zindagi mei tanhayee

Liye hum yunhi chalte rahe..

Jab ek roz unse nazre mili..

Woh andheka kar ke chale gae..

Uss din dil roya

Aur aankon se aasu beh gaye..

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woh kehte hai bhula dena mujhe,

na humsafar hun na hamnava,
teri zindagi mei ek rahi hoon..
kal tha kal kya pata...

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Ek raat aisi aae hai,

Jab teri yaad satae hai…

Andhero mei ghum

Aankhen hai num..

Dhundli hai manzil..

Lekin tanhae hai sang..

Aaj phir ek raat aisi aae hai..

Jab teri yaad dil ko satae hai…

Emotions ...!!!

What will you do when you have lost somebody who would mean the entire world for you?
What is the first thing that comes to your mind when you think of living your entire life without your heart beats (the person you love the most)?
What will you do when the same person breaks your heart not once but twice?
What if the person who proposed you later tells you he/she doesn’t have any feelings for you?


Think on it and give your opinion only after reading this story!!!

Almost each and every person have some kind or affairs or crush in their high school. This story revolves around a timid person sidharth.
Sidharth waited almost the end of school days to speak about his heart to the person he loved for so long as he was fearful that it may be the end of his friendship as well.
Moreover he didn’t want his feelings to be spread among the mass as an advertisement pamphlet that would make a mockery out of it.
But he made sure that within the two years (11th & 12th) they became good friends, their friendship made it possible for sidharth to speak what he felt without any hesitation.
As the school life was nearing it's end a sense of urgency erupt in Siddharth’s heart as he thought his feelings would remain buried in his heart as there was only a few days when they can see and talk to each other.
Finally one day sidharth decided to speak his heart.

Sidharth called her on one morning
Sidharth: hello anindita!
Anindita: speaking, who is it?
Sidharth: it's me sidharth
Anindita: sidharth!!!What happen why did you call me?
Sidharth: have something to speak to you.
Anindita: go on.
Sidharth: you always used to ask did I have anybody special in my life
Anindita: yes, who is it
Sidharth: if I speak you her name, you might not talk to me again.
Anindita: why will I do that, you are my good friend and you always be one. Now tell me her name
Sidharth: you know her very well but if I tell you her name you will break our friendship.
Anindita: I know her? Who is it please tell me.
Sidharth: first promise me no matter whatever is the case it won’t affect our friendship and we will be friends forever.
Anindita: I promise you now tell me who is it?
Sidharth: ...it's ...you anindita!!!
Anindita: joke of the year
Sidharth: it’s not a joke. You are the one for whom my heart beats
Anindita: you have gone mad. I am keeping the phone I will talk to you afterwards.
Sidharth: when?
Anindita: in the evening.
Sidharth: ok
Anindita: bye

In the evening they both met at the scheduled spot.

Sidharth: whatever your decision may be please don't break the friendship
Anindita: were you serious in the morning?
Sidharth: what do you think?
Anindita: you know sidharth i can neither accept you proposal as I have no feelings for you nor can I reject you because I don’t want to hurt you.
Sidharth :( puzzled)!!!
Anindita: we will be friends for sure. Let time decide our fate if your feelings remain the same even with passing years then we can reach to any conclusion.
Sidharth: my feelings will be same for you throughout my life
Anindita: ok let's see
Sidharth didn't get much opportunity to either speak or talk to her in the recent past as the school days were over. Finally the day came when Sidharth was to leave the place for his higher studies in a distant place.
The day sidharth was leaving he called anindita and told her that he wants to see her for the last and final time as he wasn't sure when he would see her again.
Anindita first told she can’t meet sidharth but finally agreed.

Sidharth on seeing anindita couldn't take away his eyes from her face.
Anindita: what happened why you are so dull?
Sidharth: god knows when will I next see you i only want to see you in front of my eyes throughout my life.
Anindita: you have anything to speak?
Sidharth: I just want to see you
Anindita: I am going now.
Sidharth was speechless. tears rolled out of his eyes...he didn't want anindita to see his eyes so moved his face away and they both walked away.

A month passed suddenly one day anindita received a call from an unknown number.

Anindita: hello, who is it?
Sidharth: wish you a happy friendship day
Anindita: sidharth it's you. Nice to hear you!!
Sidharth: you recognized my voice!
Anindita: I can recognize your voice even in my dreams
Sidharth: I am getting late for my college, please don’t mind i will call you back after some day
Anindita: ok
Sidharth: by the way this is my no. you can save this by name
Anindita: ok
Sidharth: bye
Anindita: bye

Since then both of them were in contact with each other
Suddenly one day anindita asked sidharth not to contact her anymore as she has promised with somebody that she would curtail all her contacts with him.
Even after much interrogation she didn’t tell anything more.
Sidharth was heart broken. His days were wretched and nights sleepless.


2 and half months passed...Sidharth decided to forget everything as a fate
Finally one day he got 2 miss calls from anindita at 3 in the morning.
Sidharth called her back but she didn’t pick the call instead sent him sms instead.

Anindita: are you still awake?
Sidharth: doing some assignments
Anindita: do you still feel the way you did in those school days?
Sidharth: yes I do.

They started talking with each other normally as before.
During this period anindita even proposed him.
It seemed that Siddharth’s love has passed the test of time and their journey of life ahead appeared smooth.

But Siddharth’s happiness didn't last long...
Anindita did things that sidharth could seldom interpret for example anindita never told why did she called her after nearly 2 and half months? Whom did she promise that she will cut all her contacts with sidharth?
Then again when everything looked good suddenly one day anindita told sidharth that she is not good enough for sidharth.
She told sidharth that he deserves much better person then her.
Sidharth was shocked with her words. He asked why did she propose him.
Anindita replied she never loved him and she thought if she would propose him then feelings for sidharth may arise in her heart but since there was no such feelings she doesn’t want to be in contact with him anymore.
Sidharth tried to convince her but she refused to speak even a word. Sidharth tried to call her on many occasion but she refused to reply and then finally changed her phone number.

In this way there was an abrupt end to what people call love!

On reading this story people may have different opinion on the boy and the girl!!!

But friends before you come to any decision I would like to stress on few things...in case you all people blame the girl and think that she was never serious and was flirting with him.

Do you think anindita had promised anybody that she would never contact sidharth? She may be lying but what if she was telling the truth?
Do you think anindita didn’t have any feelings for sidharth? She may not have but then why did she propose?
Is it because Anindita didn’t have any feelings for Sidharth that she refused to contact her? It may be true but do you think this the reason behind her breaking away?
Don’t you think anindita was having some problems? She may be fooling around but what if she was really facing some pressure form somebody may be from her parents?
Why did anindita say sidharth deserves a better person then her? Does sidharth really deserves a better person? What made anindita speak those words to him suddenly?


I have asked few questions at the beginning of the story from Siddharth’s prospective and few questions at the end from anindita's prospective...
So what's your view?

Do you think that anindita would come back to Siddharth’s life again?

Perfervid Love...!!!

Have you ever delved deep into the fact that everybody whom you know today,At first you met them as strangers* ? Do you realize it's these strangers who once become acquainted form part and parcel of life?

Strangers meet to become Acquaintances... and these acquaintance is the origin of all relations that flourish and prosper. Talking about Acquaintances...

(Strangers*:-Excluding those who are related by blood)

There’s a vast variance among the acquaintances we meet, typically they can be classified into four different sects

               1)     Neutral observers: Whatever happens to you good or bad they are disinterested in your state.

\                2)    Well wishers: they are the ones who are your true friends they will always wish good for you

                3)   Antagonist/Ad hominem: They are the ones who finds pleasure in your plight…you won’t find them around you when you are having a good time but will always be there when you face criticism.

You may feel unviable but the truth is 90% of the people you are acquainted are neutral observers. They have nothing to do with your well being or distress…near-about  equal percent of people belong to both Well wishers and antagonists…which wraps off about 99.9% of the people you know.

Today my story revolves around the 4^th kind of person whom I call perfervid personnel; 

You might think what's the point in discussing such rare fraction of people in our lives...believe me by the time i end up with my discussion about Perfervid personnel...you would surely change the perception of how you look about in your life regarding these rare people in your life.

Perfervid person are the ones who have intense feelings for your being…in simple words they are the ones similar to whom you call soul mates but there’s a acute distinction between the two…A soul mate is someone whom one acknowledge to be one’s other half but a perfervid is someone who may or may not be recognized by the person concerned nevertheless day in and day out they will seek for your well being. you may come up with...so well wishers and perfervid are the same...but There’s still disparity between the two; well wisher are someone who is recognized as a true friends but a perfervid person need not be considered a friend also…!!!

In order to get a crystal clear picture of  Perfervid personnel i would like to adduce with the story of

Perfervid Love...!!!

Anthony and Adrienne

12th August,2006

Anthony’s friend (Anna) to Anthony:-How’s life

Anthony:- I don’t know how she is, but I wish she is fine and doing well.

Anna:- I am talking about you and not the person you dream.

Anthony:- Its one and the same thing…if she’s fine I am good and if she isn’t I m not…!!!

Anna:- Move on Anthony…you are spoiling your life, we all know she is gone away your life and she isn’t coming back either.

Anthony:- why? What difference does it make? I had the same feeling when she was with me and today also I have the same feeling…I cannot change the way I feel just because she has changed.

Anna: change is the law of nature…everything changes and those who don’t wither with time.

Anthony:- I would rather accept it as my fate then trying to change what I am.

Few months passed by…

24th march 2007 :

One day Adrienne accidentally met Anthony

Anthony:- is it a dream? You don’t know how I longed to see a glimpse of you.

Adrienne:- why don’t you forget me?  And let me live?

Anthony:-  I never interfere in your personal life…neither do I make any attempt to trace your sustenance… how could I make any difference to your living?

Adrienne:- my problem is you…why don’t you get any other girl in your life? I would be the happiest person in this world if you could have someone in your life other than thinking about me.

Anthony:- I never stopped you from doing anything you want or like…but as far as my feelings are concerned it’s unchangeable…No one can replace you from my heart.

Adrienne:- please stop your blabber…I have heard this umpteen times, I love Victor… and I want to marry him…but I can’t do so as invariably your thoughts makes me feel awkward…I don’t know how but it seems you are somehow controlling my mind…I want to forget you forever.

Anthony:- That’s it Adrienne? I will go so far from you that neither my presence nor my memories will ever haunt you …He murmured last words to complete his sentence…(but wherever I will be I can never stop loving you) but not loud enough as such Adrienne couldn’t hear it.

Adrienne:- what were the last words you spoke?

Anthony:- Be happy Adrienne…!!!

After that day…No one knew any whereabouts of Anthony…Anthony left the city and went miles away from Adrienne where no one knew him…

When you love someone so dearly, you cannot even think of any other person in your life and when the same person wants to forget you forever you have a feeling similar to consuming Monosodium Glutamate (Slow poison). You know you won’t die but every other day you live becomes more dismal then the previous one.

After Anthony left…Adrienne tried to forget Anthony…but she couldn’t forget her.

(A person who has left imprints on your heart can never be wiped off…only way to wipe it off is to wipe off yourself)

17th May 2010

After much speculation for the last 3 years Adrienne finally decided to marry Victor....she was going to marry in a week's time…but there was something unusual about her…As the D day was fast approaching Adrienne was growing more and more restless as if something was not right. Few of her friends even inquired her- was she really ready for the marriage…she ignored their acquisitions…

(The reason of Adrienne’s discomfort: she was missing Anthony and in spite of all her efforts to contact Anthony…only thing she could know about him is- ‘No person in this world knows anything about Anthony...since the day he last met Adrienne’...)

26th May 2010 : The day after Adrienne's wedding day

The day of the marriage went in on with full of effects and after effects…

but it was the next day’s newspaper headline quoted “Was it really a Natural Death?”  Spread viral amongst the mass…

to give a brief of what happened the previous day… i.e. the day of Adrienne’s marriage.

Adrienne who was much obsessed of loosing Anthony blamed herself for everything…finally she succumbed and committed suicide…leaving a letter after her.

Anthony,

Please forgive me…I know you can’t and I am responsible for everything…

I cannot handle this guilt anymore… I really love you…but you are no more in my life…

so I am left with only one option in my life…that is to quit life.

(now you know the impacts of a perfervid love …A person who has left imprints on your heart can never be wiped off…if you stress much to wipe it off you would end up Wiping yourself)

Had it been any of the love stories we witness in romantic movies…Adrienne would have fled from the wedding ceremony and would have gone back to Anthony and both would have lived happily there after…but there’s the catch between real and reel life...in movies no situations are out of hand…and everything that happens is scripted…but in real life when things go out of hand…peculiarly in relations related to love they do seldom recover specially when you deliberately flush someone out of your life…disregarding all the efforts of a perfervid lover.

I would like to add a small inference over here…People having such intense feelings should never be left apart. This story revolves around two person who were both perfervid but there are people whose intense feelings are only one sided…and we ought to ignore them from our life…because we have no feelings for them…We might have a thinking we are leaving them for good but you know in reality we are slow poisoning them to death…!!!

Going back to the story at hand…

You might be wondering what about the newspaper headline? was they referring Adrienne's suicide to a natural death?
let me clear the confusion...At the same time when Adrienne committed suicide…Anthony who was thousands of miles away and was ignorant about this incident was sitting in his chair…suddenly his eyes gushed with water, he closed his eyes…but did never open his eyes again…

 if you believe by what doctors say you would say he died from an heart attack…but people at large…who came to know about the coincidence of both the incidents where forced to question  “Was it really a Natural Death?”

If you are one amongst the Antagonists you would say…such coincidence can happen…but as we know there are few questions which are beyond the scope of science…and as theists would say where science ends spirituality begins…and therefore I proclaim…

“There was certainly a connection of Adrienne’s life with that of Anthony”… (Rephrasing the lines which Anthony had spoken to Anna)

Anna: How’s life?

Anthony: I don’t know how she is, but I wish she is fine and doing well.

Anna: I am talking about you and not the person you dream.

Anthony: Its one and the same thing…if she’s fine I am good and if she isn’t I m not…!!!

I know many people would rate this story as hypothetical…but if they really understand about the extreme feelings of a perfervid love or Perfervid personnel in short…they wouldn't  call it a fiction as they would realize these things do happen in real life…!!!